okok. i know i suck, my blog always damn emo one.
happy post number ONE.
my life is awesomezxz.
idk.
i....am.....walao sian.
i have a lot of things to be grateful for, but i don't know what to be HAPPY about.
maybe i'm happy about a certain boy. but that falls under grateful cause i'm grateful he feels the same.
i don't know man. hahahaha. i'm so confused. i'm happy i have all 4 limbs, but...shouldn't that fall under the "i'm grateful for..." list too?
maybe instead of "i'm happy that..." i should be aiming for "i'm happy". just "happy". inner peace. without condition or context.
but how to random random happy? like damn weird?
i swear i'm a very cheerful person in real life. but i'm just not happy lor. not right now. not when i'm sitting alone, at home, spam-blogging wtf.
maybe if i were blogging while i was with him, or out with someone, i'd sound happier. cause i'd be happier at that moment.
how to make happiness last?
i wanna bottle it up and drink it without having to deal with a hangover the next day.
i have trouble making happiness last too :( i get momentary happiness... because if the fun things im doing at a certain point in time. and then i go home and feel crappy all over again.
ReplyDeletepfft.
kj