happy.

so...i've come to terms with the whole not singing thing recently.
i've been pouring everything i have into http://pxd.nu. please do click it it's amazing i promise (:

it's consuming all my energy but i love it, and i love watching more and more people like it on facebook every day. hehe.

i haven't done a singing video in forever but thats fine. if it was meant to be, it would have been by now. of course i do feel a tinge of regret but it's not the debilitating resentment toward everything and everyone that i used to feel.

i am so truly happy right now, and at peace with myself. ever since i cut my hair short, i've become much more confident and daring. it's just something about short hair that makes me feel good! haha.

and well. i'm just happy. i'm single, but i'm happy. when it's time, it will happen. if it doesn't, whatever (:

i really cannot explain my newfound peace and happiness but i GUESS it's cause i've been so absorbed w LIVING life and not moping around that i've discovered so many wonderful things and people (:

and also well when you have a new friend, you tend to be happy cause you just made a new friend (:

i'm quite sad that we aren't friends anymore.

i love you though. if ever you need someone, i'll be here.
i'm just sorry that i wouldn't give any more than i did, which i know was startlingly little.
you're so great and not a day goes by where i don't think about you and how i screwed things up so bad.
i wish we could have stayed that way forever, but i was unable to meet you halfway.
i know i threw us away, in retrospect i can see what a bitch i was.
but then again, i've always known i'm a bitch when it comes to these boy-girl things.
you were my best guy friend and i'm stupid for thinking we could stay as that without repercussions.
i want to bbm you, every single day, but i'm scared and don't know what to say.
don't be a stranger, and i hope one day you'll talk to me again (: