taylor momsen should stop calling herself an artist. she's so full of herself.

thurs: BLG.

sat: FTI (OMFGGGGG!!! all of them (except hongki) <3, ESPECIALLY JONGHOON. he RADIATES cool charisma. we made eye contact for all of ONE SECOND, all it took was one small semi-smile from him, and i was already weak in the knees. minhwan is EPIC CUTE. seunghyun had a very limp handshake ))))))))): i love him in makbanshi, but whats up with the limp, super fast handshakes? minhwan HUGGED his fans. and all i got was a one-second long dead fish. and we all paid the same amount of money. SO NOT FAIR. jonghoon is so buff now *squeal*
you know whats screwed up? the fact that i paid one hundred bucks to get that one second handshake from my 2nd fave member of fti, but i DONT think it is a waste of money D:

sun: SHINee!! (OMG ONEW <3)

hardcore weekends ftw.
wish every weekend was like this!! hahaha but thn again it burns tons of money.

I PRAY HOPE PRAY SOME MORE that ONEW will be the one signing my cd!! <3
i dont even really like taemin. blah.

sooo on average, i prefer fti, cause 4 of them are so cute.
butttt i am crazyyyyy over onew as well.

so i'll get up at FIVE AM tmr to go lot 1 at SEVEN AM (IKR).

wish me luckkkk!!! <3


and oh yeah. sean faris is....sex.

so is nina dobrev. she is my latest girl crush.

she's the one on the right.

she has one of the BEST bodies i've seen in a LONG time. just the right amount of boobs, waist, butt, and thighs. her legs are epic, and she has a nice toned/slim but yet curvy hourglass figure. SO PERFECT. and she has this cute baby angel face with this devil's body. OMG  <3

today (and yesterday) was (NOT) a fairytale.

ive been SICK....the room keeps spinning and my head pounds, and the dizziness makes me feel nauseous, food never gets far down my gullet before i puke it all back out, i got a bloody fever and cough that refuses to go away even though i'm taking some hardcore cough pills. everything tastes so shitty too. i better lose weight from this ordeal, if not, i wouldve gotten sick for nothing.

i'm surfing the net, saw tons of cool things that were unveiled at the CES which was held like 2 weeks ago. damn idk why i'm always so slow.

i saw 2 cool things from the CES show:

1)

the charger that can charge phones on the go. it's like, you charge this slim metal pad at home, then after it's juiced up, you can slip it into your pocket and bring it out, when your phone goes flat, you just whip the metal pad charger thing out and lay your phone on top of it, and VOILA! fully charged phone ^^ so no need to bring your charger out and manically look around for a power point anymore. they even have BIGGER chargers for charging LAPTOPS and such. damn freaking cool right! (i don't really want it though, i don't think i would use it v often so it's kind of a waste of money to me)

kk i show u pitcha:

item number TWO:

i want this SO BAD.

i wanted the apple tablet at first (for those of you who dunno, apple is gonna unveil a new tablet on jan 27, i'm keeping an eye out for future reviews and such, rumour has it that it won't be a fully functional laptop kinda thing, more like an oversized iphone. if it's running on a half-assed OS like the iphone, and not a FULL computer OS, then well, i think it'll be rather retarded, who wants a giant iphone right? LOL but if it's gonna have full notebook capability, except fully touchscreen, then that'll be quite cool :D) also, people are saying that the apple tablet will provide itunes LP supprt. i don't really care about that, cause i like vinyl records, but i don't have any. lol. so it's useless to me.

anyway. item number two that i want so DESPERATELY is the ASUS NX90, a collaborative effort between ASUS, and OMFG, BANG & OLUFSEN!!!!

 

apple fanboys are SO annoying. some idiot labelled a video of ASUS' CEO presenting this laptop at CES as "ASUS unveils Macbook Pro competitor at CES 2010". you can search for it on youtube. of course, apple fanboys just HAD to comment on the video, calling this baby a "fucking ugly piece of shit" or saying crap like "what, n*ggas never heard of headphones?" or "this could never even come close, probably would be alright/enough for LOW END users, but definitely not for MAC users".

okay first of all, what is with that last comment? so everyone who doesn't use a mac is LOW END? that other than mac users, everyone else in this world is just crass low class riff raff? what bullshit.
apple fanboys need to jump off their bloody high horse. most mac users aren't like this, my friends who use macs are chill and can appreciate PCs, but apple fanboys are definitely more rabid than anyone else in the world. but one thing i've noticed about mac users is that they always LOVE to say that their Mac is like, better. they show me their macs and go "see, so cool right? this is why i bought a mac and not a PC" like goddammit just shut up already. i've used a macbook before, i absolutely LOVED it, but honestly, both windows and mac are almost the same. they just LOOK very different and run differently and have different target audiences, but i like both. windows allows for way more personalization. whereas for a mac, their window borders are always silvery grey, no variety at all -.-
sure it's sleek, but it's so boring.

yeah so anyway,  back to my point, it's wrong on SO MANY LEVELS to say that the NX90 would suffice for low end users but could never satisfy a mac user. firstly, we're not lower end than mac users, in fact, mac fanboys are prolly lower end for being so narrow minded and just blindly worshiping apple's every move and product.

as for the other comments, yes, but people don't wanna use headphones all the time, it damages the ears, dumbnut. so when music is played aloud, the NX90 is gonna pwn the macbook ANYTIME. yesh see those 2 panels at the side of the ASUS notebook? those are speakers! they're on the top instead of the bottom cos when it's opened up, if theyre on the bottom, they would face the sky, so it isn't such a treat for the ears, whereas when it's on the top, like this lappie, the speakers will directly face the user, so the sound is better.

well, most people say windows vista < EVERY OTHER OS, but windows 7 > snow leopard. so windows has improved by leaps and bounds. they practically overhauled the nightmare that was vista. but can the same be said for mac's new snow leopard OS, which is just a minor upgrade from the leopard OS?  most likely not. i love both though, as a person who's used both. i just think it'll be more worthwhile to get a windows 7 - running laptop than a snow leopard- running one, cause 7 is gonna be around for QUITE A WHILE (considering it's still new and incredibly stable and all) whereas i foresee a new OS in the next year for apple, they NEED to have a new OS out soon to compete with windows, everyone knows apple's OS has been essentially the same for quite a long while, so it's getting boringgg.

and don't say this laptop is ugly just cause you favour all things mac. I THINK IT'S PRETTY DAMN SEXY. and, do i need to repeat, it's designed by f***ing BANG & OLUFSEN!!!! b&o could never be ugly, even if they TRIED.








omg i dont know why i just went on some tech-related spiel. if it were about all the latest news, i would be proud of myself for being such a good nerd and being so up to date on geeky things. but nope, the NX90 came out TWO WEEKS AGO, and windows 7 EVEN LONGER ago. so i can't even do a good job of being a techy geek, i'm so OUT OF DATE. so not cool. but anyway whatever luh, i STILL don't know what laptop i wanna buy to bring to australia. either a mac or a vaio or the nx90, idk.

george bowen uy III 's 21st bday

got home at midnight, fell asleep at 12.30, woke up at 3.30 with a hammer in my head and blender in my stomach. now it's 7am. i SO need to sleep, but i just can't fall asleep. this is so weird cause i only slept for 3 hours, yet i feel wide awake.


i feel like puking and my head hurts. it's weird cause i didn't even get that drunk. i think it was the MIX of different things )):

but i could still walk straight and all, even though i kept saying i was drunk.
hmmmm. eye dee kay.

had a h2h chat with mah bro. i finally understand things from another POV. like some stuff you do, you just don't think much about it, it just comes out of your mouth automatically, like word vomit. then you realise that guys are so annoyed by it, especially complaining that you're fat. uhh what else did i learn? oh yes. but i wont say here.


newayzxz. i got DRUNK DIALLED by JH at 4am halfway through my h2h with bro, wtf lol.


URHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i need to puke. but nothing will come out ))):

i SPOKE to marc for the first time, no it's not the first time i've met him, i've known him for 17 years, family friend and stuff like that, he even came to my place before, but we never spoke to each other. then we speak to each other on the one occasion where our families aren't involved. so ironic right haha.

i was the first to leave after amet and vernice (damn they're so fking cute tgt i swear to god. i met them for the first time today, but they're damn super friendly and nice). me and sarah were sitting there and like, crashing their couples corner, i feel so bad now haha. i have a midnight curfew. quite sad right haha. then after i got home, my dad was like "why didn't you tell me you were at a chalet! i thought you were OUT in orchard or sth thats why i gave you a curfew, cause like, it's not safe out thr. but if you had SAID you were at a CHALET, i WOULD HAVE LET YOU STAY LATER." wthhhhhhhhhhhh. i get home alr then he tell me -.-

uhh also i met the owner of the OCS SEXY VOICE! haha. joel thio's brudderrrrrrrr.
they're so alike o.O

uhhhhhhhhhh bowen got drunk. super funny. haha.

sarah got drunk too.

aiya everyone got drunk.

no luh just bowen and sarah i think ^^







ROARRRRRRRRRRRRR TIME FOR SOME SEX ON LEGS!!! IN SUPER HD (BY YOUTUBE STANDARDS)!!! you're welcome :D

i can't even decide who my favourite is! they're all so SEXY. everyone says they're the next FTI but i beg to differ, cause FTI is CUTE and PRETTY. CNBLUE is like OMFG. ESP JONGHYUN. i clearly have a thing for guitarists, and korean guys called jonghyun/jonghun. haha. jonghYun is like, so NATURALLY charismatic. the lead singer, yonghwa, is really shy in real life, like in video clips, he's so cute and shy. so i guess he has to overcompensate, that's why he's like so...EXTRA during the performances. haha so yeah i think yonghwa was like a bit too ACT. but jonghyun was like. smooth man. smoooooooooooooooooooth. and his SINGLE DIMPLE OMG AND HIS DEEP VELVETY VOICE OMG OMG AND how he looks so badass OMG OMG OMG! BUT BUT. I LOVE THE BOTH OF THEM. yonghwa is like sooo SHY AND CUTE. and jeongshin damn cute haha at 2:18, when he spots the camera, he raises one eyebrow like WHUUUUUUUUUT OMG I LOVE CNBLUE ^^





in other news, OMFG JANG GEUN SUK IS FUCKING COMING TO SINGAPORE! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO/ I try not to curse, but srsly. it's JANG. GEUN. SUK!!!!

wait i shall find cute pic and put here. you MAY be able to click to view a larger image (:
SEE HOW VERSATILE HE IS???

i'm happy right now (:

i'm going to school, gonna go to uni, then gonna work ((:


i'm perfectly content with this path ^^

oh ya, i forgot to say.

i went with my dad to eat at kuriya penthouse after he saw a good review for it in the business times. (side note: there's a kuriya in VIVO, but it's just kuriya, it serves GRILLED jap food. it's REALLY REALLY NICE. so go on, visit kuriya in vivo! it's damnnnnnn best.)

it wasn't worth the *** bucks, just for the TWO of us. -.-

rly rly not worth it. so the point of this post is to tell you, it's not that amayjing.

i mean. raw fish is raw fish, everyone in singapore gets their raw fish from the same supplier (cause we got none of our own), and like, no cooking skills required. so honestly, raw fish tastes the same everywhere. it just depends on the grade of fish they choose to buy. so at kuriya penthouse, their toro was VERY nicely marbled. but then that just means more fat so i'm not sure if i'm into that haha. i like the taste of raw FISH man, who cares about raw FAT right haha. i VANT TO TASTE DE BUHLAAADD!!! *dracula tone*
like imagine dracula choking on tuna fat. kk that was unnecessary, apologies (:

the chef was SUPER friendly though, good service.

don't get me wrong, the food was GREAT! just not ***-bucks-great.


we (or rather, my dad) were paying like 70 bucks for JUST the clam soup -.- it was damn nice, but not worth 70 bucks.


so GREAT food, but too overpriced.


honestly, for this kind of price, a better place to feast on jap food would be NOGAWA. it's in that building, the meridien(?) the one at the bus stop just before dhoby. chef nogawa left for japan to start his own restaurant in ginza though :'( he is so legendary, that like when he offered me a cherry tomato dipped in sea salt, i ATE it all in ONE mouthful, i just popped it in, even though i HATE tomatoes. i'm sure the food there is still great even though he's not there anymore (i put "^^", but then i realised there's no appropriate emoticon for this kind of happy-but-wistful-sad-still happy kind of sentence lol)


BUT BUT BUT. for cooked jap food, i say head to....kk i won't tell you, cause like, wait that place gets overrun. NO LA no one reads my blog anyway, other than Vicki and George. so i'll tell you. for relatively cheap DAMN DELICIOUS jap food, GO TO CUPPAGE PLAZA. that place is FILLED with jap places to eat and make merry, it's always filled with japs. so you know the restaurants serve authentic food. always call ahead to make bookings though. cause ALL the restaurants are packed during meal times. and the food there is RELATIVELY cheap (((:



no, i'm not a food snob, i love sakae sushi also! my dad has high standards, but i don't ((: i love all kinds of food man! except pastamania. and that's saying a lot, considering i even like the microwave-able instant pasta from 7-11.

right now i'm eating homemade curry and chapatti(sp). (i told you i lead a very sedentary lifestyle, i'm freaking eating and BLOGGING at the same time OMFG LOL) my dad makes it all the time cause i lurveee it. his curry is like coconut milk-free, so it's very diet-friendly ^^ i know, diet friendly and curry just dont go tgt right? haha. but yeah. so i don't eat out at crazy places all the time. i only go out like once a week, it's my LIMIT haha. the rest of the time, i'm with my dad, baking, or like. eating what he cooks. which is always always delicious (:

idk how i'll survive w/out his meals when i go overseas, here in sg, all 3 meals are like provided at regular intervals, by my dad. i don't even have to wash the dishes here. gahhhhhh so panicky now.

and i'll be so deprived of AUTHENTIC local food when i'm there :'(


yes, i know that i SEEM like the wild/crazy/constantly partying type. but no, i'm actually a closet loser. kk you know what, i AM a loser. and i'm happy being one. i just like being at home and spending time with my family. yes, i know i'm a non-ugly teenage (sigh i wont be "teenage" much longer) girl with enough friends to fill my calendar with. but i don't like it. at first i was like OMG so many new friends yay me! and i would always go out. but then like. i started to feel like i was doing it cause i wanted to be able to say yay i've got so many friends. could i really GENUINELY GENUINELY be THERE as a SOLID ROCK OF LOVE AND CARE for ALL of them? no. no one has the time or energy to be everyone's best friend. and if there's one thing i HATE, it's the hi-bye friend. i dont even understand why that category exists. i say hi and bye to you. but we're in no way, real friends. so shouldn't we just be like, on cordial terms? once you stick the word FRIEND there, there's an obligation, a responsibility on our part to fulfill that role and be nice. but so many hi-bye friends bitch about each other, i'm sure everyone's been through it and DONE it, don't lie. even if you never actively bitched, did you ever once say "hey, aren't you her friend? why are you bitching?" if you didn't, like how i don't, then yeah we're lousy friends. so why call ourselves a FRIEND to that person? we don't deserve it. so i just wanna be friends with people i care about, because honestly if i'm keeping up with certain people for the sake of having more people to hang with, i feel like i'm wasting their time and i have no right to call myself friend. because i wouldn't care about them the way i would a best friend. and if i can't be there for them, i really should not expect them to be there for me or hang out with me. so no, i steer clear of most people. i only hang out with some people whom i think i deserve to hang out with.

do i make sense?

no matter what today's life section said, no matter the "siren call" (LOLOLOL i LMAOed when i saw the title) ,

I MUST STUDY
I MUST STUDY
I MUST STUDY
I MUST STUDY
I MUST STUDY



on a brighter note, i'm still 44kg even after eating like a gajillion pancakes.

i've developed an unhealthy obsession with pancakes and maple syrup.

thank god i'm not going to canada anymore, or i may just go on a maple syrup tasting spree and thus gain like 7493 grams.

I NEED TO EXERCISE. getting vry vry unfit. like i dont wanna lose weight anymore, i'm happier now, but like. i don't like my current sedentary lifestyle.

i must be fitter so i can be BADASS. lol not rly i just keep getting sick nowadays, i'm sure it's cause i'm unfit so my immune system is like six feet under.

speaking of six feet under, michael C hall got cancer but got treated for it. thank goodness, cause he's so freaking talented ((:



ROARRRRRRRRRRRRR i need supernatural to start again!!! i've been watching FRINGE and CHUCK. they're good but they're no JARED PADALALA AND JENSEN ACKLESSSSSSSSSS.

and the big bang theory is funnaye!

in HIMYM news, i'm damnnnnn sad that RACHEL BILSON is not "THE MOM". PLZ I LOVE HERRRRRRRRRRRR. I SOOO WAS LOOKING FORWARD TO HER being REVEALED as THE mom. but she turned out to be the jealous roommate.

sighzxz.


kk back to like. emo confused about lyfe mode.

HOW? WHAT SHLD I DO WITH MY LIFE MAN.


GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

cnblue - i'm a loner MV

growing up sucks ):

me: daddy, what if one day i left school to be a singer? would you kill me?
dad: *threatening fierce tone* i would be very very very disappointed, after spending so much money on your education.
me: i know, random question, that's all. i just feel quite sad, cause like turning 18 suddenly feels like i've lost my license to dream. i have to like, be serious and mature. remember those days when i used to say i wanna be a rock star? sighhhh.
dad: well that's what growing up is all about, we're not supposed to be happy all the time. besides, you think you'll be happy? being a performer is probably more stressful than being an office worker.
me: yeah. i know. their lives suck worse than ours. they have to diet and all that.

yet, i find myself wanting it so much more than i've ever wanted anything else D:

i'm in this state of panic now because i'm turning 18 soon and i'm going to college and all that, if i wanna do it, i better do it now before my dad throws away his twenty thousand dollars on my foundation year studies - only to see me leave school a few months from now. but like. if i did do it. i'd probably get disowned. not only that, if i don't succeed, i reallyyyyy am fucked for life, cause i'll have to find a real job with only an O level cert. you'll prolly see me working at 7-11.

i can't wait anymore, because the older you get, the harder it gets. and i don't even know where to start. i wish i could just be HAPPY being a professor (i keep telling people that's my ambition). but like, i know if i don't try, the what if will haunt me forever.

tiffany (SNSD) up and left her everything (including a very disapproving father) in 3 weeks to chase her dreams. her father still isn't with her, physically or emotionally. but if she can deal with it, i don't see why i can't. my former schoolmate went to taiwan after her O levels to try too, but her parents were supportive. i'm not brave enough i guess D:

i'm so scared to even try. if i try and like i fail, it's cool, at least i tried (even if the price is that my dad's "i told you so" will follow me everywhere).

but if i try and like have a genuine shot at something, then have to walk away cause of school, i think i'll freaking wilt.


yes, this blog has become an amalgamation of all my thoughts/emotions/feelings/misadventures. i'm tired of having to categorise my life.

it's been ______________
but i still _________________
when _______________,
and almost all ___________.

FML.

again and again, 너에게 미쳤었다. -----> 2pm songs! but also kinda like my current status.
you make me so angry and so sad. you suck ): i don't like how we just STOPPED being friends. we were friends before we became that awkward entity, so since that awkward thing caused some kind of weirddd drifting apart (i'm not even sure why we drifted apart) can't we just go back to being friends? since we were friends way before everything? )):

i miss having you as a friend and talking to you all the time about hot girls. it used to piss me off but i would give so much for us to be that way again.

on another note, about a completely different person,

i hate being cryptic, it's annoying i know. but i'm not as cryptic and confuzzling as ____________ who claims to _______ one minute and then just __________ the next.
____________ one day then gives me a "-.-" look the next.

V V annoying. Like, just stop being an idiot already. Either stop or go, don't act like a hi-bye normal terms kind of friend, cause we were never even friends in the first place.

we were never friends to start with. so i honestly don't understand your problem.

don't go all "OMG HEYYYYY i haven't seen you in forever!" then just IGNORE me when we do see each other.

{{{{{{{{{{


just to end this pseudo-emo rant (cause i'm honestly not that upset, i just think you don't make sense and it annoys me that i can't figure it out) , i'm gonna say,
everything catches up with you. everything.




andddd i came across the blog/fb page of a stranger. she's my friend's friend but we don't rly know each other, i just thought she was pretty so i clicked her profile (oh gawd i sound like some pervy guy haha)

but yeah i clicked. then i think i came across like, the freaking greatest love story ever told. like epic romantic. most of her blog wasn't very interesting, but the story of her and her boyfriend was (:

i don't know why i'm blogging about a stranger, i just suddenly feel like there's hope in this world for me AHAHAHA. well not really. i think i'm a lost cause.

BUTTTTTTTT! who doesn't like looking at hot people, and her and her bf are both super hot and cute. so it was v v v sweet ((:


and thennnnnnnnnnnn. I finally finished season 2 of chuck! casey is awesome hahahaha.

omg i went to celebrate HJ's bday at party world and din tai fung with the rest of MCP, and ALOT of funny shit was said that i swore to myself i would memorise and post here, but i forgot them all DDD:

but there were some super epic things being said haha. just can't rmb :'(

i finally saw KJ again! and her dress sense is like. damn good haha. her dress was cool her HOT PINK tights were uber cool (how many people would dare to wear that?! not me D: but i so wish i had the guts to) and she looked fab. and she has regained her former procelain flawless faced beauty (: whereas my skin has been going downhill haha. mop cut his mop away! lol. i saw DRK and BEN and KS and CHEW and OMG JOSIAS HAHA again after like 28302984 months, josias is like. he brings the LOLz man.

i remember! this convo took place between josias and the slightly "big" chew.

Josias: whats the diff? (between the sizes of ipod touch and iphone)
Chew: different thickness, see yours is thinner.
Josias: (takes his touch and compares side by side with Chew's iphone)
Josias: oh ya it's fatter..........no wonder you use (it)


omg doesn't seem that funny written here, but combined with the signature jos "arbo i'm the best" tone, it was damnnnnnnnn funny haha.


then i rmb low said sth at din tai fung that made all of us LMAOOOO for like a good 5 mins. but i forget what he said :'(


I sometimes ALMOST wish i lived in BP, cause then i'd be able to meet up with them more often. they're soooo awesome haha i love all of them.

haha just thinking about ytd's DTF and HAIRCUT FIASCO (walaoooo one freaking hour haha) has cured my emoness :D :D


sigh. i'm kinda emo again now. cause i just looked back on my life, and i realised that just DISAPPEARING seems to be a very common thing among all the ___________ i know.

i disappear too, i know, and i'm so sorry, especially to rachael watson, i feel so bad, but i feel like she's moved on with her life too, and i don't wanna start talking to her again, only to disappear and disappoint her AGAIN. so i feel like it's better if she just lives her ****awesome life without having to deal with some unreliable forever fading away friend like me.

but idk. me and *****, we were so much closer than that. and you didn't even fade away. you just like. VANISHED.

funny how i STILL can't get over it. so much other bad shit has happened since then, but this is the one i keep coming back to.

california sun

can't go back,
it's too late to say goodbye.
can't turn back time,
i don't wanna turn back time.
can't go back,
even if we tried.
can't turn back time,
i don't wanna turn back time.
i'm not waiting for the day,
when you come back
to the california sun.

f.cuz/

everyone likes KAN or LEEU or YEJUN.

I LIKE JINON! he's like the EUNJUNG of f.cuz. leader, but soooo underrated.

eunjung is my favourite in t-ara!!! just so you know.

roarrrrrrrrrr when will i ever get around to posting pics from my trip to wonderful hk? hahahaaha I ALSO DK.

anyway. here's JINON!!!

omg JIGGY! such a cute song! the chorus is cuteee. but outfits DDD: